Sometimes there will be days like these. Those days when you think you have a plan
that seems do-able and then it just doesn't work out so well. When the internet is down or the car doesn't
start and everything seems to be running in slow motion when you are ready for
some speed? Today was that kind of
day. Sometimes there are blatant signs
that those few minute you were delayed saved your life—the accident you come
upon, the important phone call you would have otherwise missed—and the messed
up schedule seems more forgivable. Other
times it just plain seems like the world is just not in sync with you and when
one thing doesn't go right, it seems like everything else follows that
path. I wonder why this happens every
once in a while. Is it to remind me that
things happen in God’s time rather than my time? Or to knock me on my noggin to remind me that
God is in control? Or is it to teach me
to let go of my earthly expectations?
I get it, God! I
don’t have control of every situation. I
cannot make things happen on my schedule or expect everyone else to cater to my
calendar. I give up! I give it to you in hopes that you can help
my aching stomach stop hurting with my near-constant stress. I give it to you in hopes that you will
soften the harsh tone in my voice so that my relationships are not
tarnished. I give it to you because the
burdens I cling to are holding me back from experiencing the vast opportunities
this life you have given me offer. Help
me to stop, see and smell the intricacies of life instead of rushing past the
gardens of glory that fill my life with beauty.
Help me to breathe in the sweet air while watching a yellow moon rise
over the horizon and not worry about what is or is not getting done and even
more, to let go of the expectations of how
it is getting done. There is so much more
going on in life, and I need to learn to be present to see it all. It is only with your help that I can. I give it to you. Amen.