Restless

I’m leaving in the morning for a week up north doing the mission trip I have been writing about all week.  It’s been a busy day doing last minute things for the trip, for the apartment search for my mother in law, for the house I’m leaving behind, and I’m feeling a little restless, a little anxious, a little perplexed.  It will be good to get on the road and begin focusing on one thing.  My “love the one you’re with” way of balancing things in my life that don’t always seem to work together will be a good way for me to re-focus and “be” where I need to be, when I need to be there.  It will be good to be without a computer all week, but it will mean that I won’t be blogging and I won’t be staying current on the lives of so many people who I stay connected with on Facebook.  Emails will have to wait, phone calls will be returned in a week.  This is a time for me to do something for people I don’t know, a time for me to refocus my sight on God’s glory in the world, a time for me to rejuvenate relationships with people from my Epiphany family, a time for me to grow.  And as I look at it this way, I am still restless.  I’m worrying about the things I will not be able to do to help with the apartments search, even though I've already done a significant amount.  

I was introduced to the singer Audrey Assad and finally listened to one of her songs tonight, Restless.  Here is the link to the song:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N0B2ybZpDeM.  Listening, it reminded me where my heart needs to be, where my focus needs to be, where my feet need to rest.  In God, with God.  Listen to the song, for it is my prayer tonight.  And pray for me and the others who are going on this mission trip, and especially for those who live on the reservation.  We will touch one another—this is not a one-way relationship—and we will grow together.  What a blessing!